An excerpt from my newsletter of July 17, 2016
Dear Art Friends,
I’ve had a difficult few days.
The Nice tragedy has really upset me. It has disturbed my equilibrium.
Nice was my home for almost 8
years.
These last days have had me
scanning every French news report I can find as, slowly, the victims names are
released. I have spent hours trying to figure out the current ages of friends’
children. I study the posted photographs, wondering how my neighbours would look
now. Were they there, in this picture, or in that one.
When I lived in Nice I was
directly above the Promenade, between Gambetta & Congress, right where the
truck finally stopped. I would walk my dogs every day on the Promenade, a ten
minute walk from my apartment. Would I have been there on that night had I
stayed? Certainly the entire city was made up of gregarious folk who enjoyed a
stroll after a good dinner. Would friends have dragged me out? The girls, my
golden retrievers, would have stayed at home; they firmly believed that any
fireworks announced the commencement of the end of time. Last Thursday
they would have been right.
I am heartsick.
Memories that I prefer to let
lie, like sleeping dogs, have stormed my brain. Nice changed my life. From
betrayed, loving and loyal wife, I willed myself, forced myself, to refocus my
psyche completely on my art. I showed my work in Paris, as well an Monaco, and
other places; lectured at the home/museum of the Baroness Beatrice Rothschild,
Le Musée
Ile-de-France; discovered my intense love of research; founded The Tevlin
Perspective: art history from an artist’s point of view; lectured up and
down the Côte d’Azur; worked as a volunteer at the Hôpital L’Archet, in the
children’s ward, and promised myself never to let another person become more
central to my existence than myself. (Other than my mother of course ;-)))
It was hard work.
For me Nice was a city of
betrayal, and a place of regeneration. My art changed completely. I took chances
I hadn’t even considered before. I now only had myself to please. It was in
Nice that I did all of my triptychs, the small ones as well as the large. Most
of the triptychs are still there. The French buy a lot of art.
The reports of tragedy are so
common now that we tend to forget, or have no way of realizing, the simple
humanity of the people who have been destroyed, and the families that have been
ripped asunder. All of the French tragedies have made me search for old friends.
These survivors, my friends, les Nicoises, les Parisiennes, must be thinking,
“Have we been forgotten? Why have we been forsaken?”
I have not forgotten how to
pray.